Monday, August 09, 2004

Mizz her voice....

haiz...been damn tired sia...let me see wat have i been doin since i last blogged...
Had work last saturday, very sian u noe...oredy so tired...tot cld slack abit wen miss yap, my manager, in e office...skali sueh sia...e shift manager from e store near intchg cum sia...den stay there duno for wat...walk2 ard...den i tot tats all...2 my bad luck, e shift manager, Ricky, oso cum...aiyoh...had 2 be on my bez behaviour u noe...damn sian...luckily all went hm ard 12+ den i slack ah...read magazine, newspaper...sit behind counter...den went hm n do nuting much lah...

Den sunday work again...but tis tym neva work alone...at 11 lyk tat uncle richard cum...he work 11am-7pm...he new u see, so i had 2 'train' him...sian sia...i juz work 2 mths n kena train ppl oredy...sheesh...miz yap siow ah...i tink she trust me 2 much sumtyms...found out from nur tat i got a gd reputation there...really arh? din noe sia...i tot i e moz slacker sia...Anyways...feel very funny lah train uncle richard...he is actually a regular customer...everyday cum e store...we even reserve a copy of today newspaper everyday...sheesh...hmmm n guess wat...e store now got 2 new workers...n since den, all e shift got short of money n mistakes...even uncle Koh shift...except...hehe my SHIFT hahaha...see i pro oredy..no problem from me oredy haha YAY! haha anyways...after work went home 2 get some slp cuz at nite had 2 jaga my nenek at hospital so had 2 rest...but wen got hm, cldnt slp ah...duno y...in e end force myself 2 squeeze in one hr of slp...

So woke up at 7.30 pray den get ready...my dad send me 2 e hospital...den find out tat my younger cuzn, Sadiq, wan 2 join me n Fadhly look after our granny...so wen i reach my aunt, unc n cuzins wen hm...leave me n sadiq, diq for short...fadhly havent reach yet...so i told diq 2 do his hmwork while i hold my nenek's hand...she's tat way...wen awake, she wants 2 hold sumone's hand...so i hold...she needs assurance i guess...so anyway diq suddenly ask me wat color is frangipani?...i oso not sure...but i asked him back, u noe wat it means wens u suddenly smell that scent? haha he oso noe...means got pontianak(a female vampire i guess)...den smth funny happen...a few minits after tat ah...on my right side very nice smell...lyk sum kind of perfume...i tot lyk very funny rite...cuz i dun feel anytink...usually i wld feel...so i ask diq, she got use any perfume or not?...he say noe...sheesh...so i start reading sum verse of e quran...after half an hour it bcame stronger...so i asked diq 2 hurry up do his work n hold my nenek hand cuz i wan 2 do a special prayer...tats wen i found out tat e smell came from e air freshner tat my aunt put n neva tell me...diq oso 4got abt it...sheesh...make me worry for my nenek onli...hmm den after a while my nenek fell aslp...as i was holdin my hand n looking at her slping so peacefully...i tot 2 myself...i'm neva gona hear her voice again...she lost her ability of speech...im gona miz her voice...used 2 tok 2 her abt alot of stuff...sure i cld tok 2 her still, but i wldn't get any response...really gona miz her voice...so for e 1st tym since she was warded in e hospital, i felt lyk crying...but no, i cant cry, i muz be strong...i oredy seen my strong uncles n aunties n mum break down n cry...i must b strong...for them...juz lyk they have been strong for me n my cuzins wen we needed dem...cuz they juz have a very weak spot for their mother...but im not surprised...my nenek has always been very popular 2 all her children, siblings, cuzins n frens...she is a well lyked person...muz be strong for her n dem...juz wish wen my tym comes, ppl will care for me juz lyk they care for her now...so for e very 1st tym i will say tis...I Love u nenek...i'll pray for u....


Shad checked in on...Monday, August 09, 2004