Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Regrets....
Ppl say tat we shdnt keep feelings 2 ourself...tat if we dun tell ppl abt hw we feel, we may regret it cuz sumtyms tommorrow neva cums....as i sit here tinking abt tat, i wonder hw true is tat...sum tyms i wish i neva had opne my mouth...there've been so many tings tat i've said tat i regret...i mean being sum one hu always screws up, wen i say hw i feel, i not onli hurt n complicate tings for myself but for others too...i need 2 learn 2 shut my mouth up n take all the hurt n complication all 2 myself...i've done it b4, i'm sure i can do it again...mebi change isn't always for e gd...mebi i've bcum 2 strait foward...hu noes...
Ppl always say if they cld turn back tym they wld make things better or, for the hopeless romantics, they wldnt change a thing cuz they found the love of their lyf...for me,i duno...if tym happen 2 turn back for me, i'll still be the same confused person...sum say im strong n can take alot...haizz...juz wish ppl stop expectin things from me...sure i always seem 2 be ok wen bad things happen...but im tired of bein e patient n calm one...wonder y ppl close 2 me expect me 2 be tat way. Well, all i can say now is tat i shd try keeping mum abt hw i feel from now on...even if i live 2 regret it...pain is such a norm 2 ppl, wonder y it still so hard 2 handle it...
So...shd i juz keep things 2 myself or jz b strait fowrd lyk i am now...got 2 find my way in tis life....DAMN!!!
Shad checked in on...Wednesday, August 04, 2004