Saturday, January 01, 2005

2005

As the crowd counted down the final seconds of the year, i look back at the year, images of memories juz came back. Especially abt the recent tsunami thingy. Funny how ppl unite in times of tragedy...

But despite all the global tragedy, some how i juz find it hard to 'care'. Somehow, im more concern abt myself. Yah, i guess tat makes me selfish. Dun get me wrong i do pity the victims n i do wanna help. Its juz tat i feel very useless. I feel lyk i cant help anyone. I dun even have money to donate. Sheesh....

Life is so down for me now. And i must say, tat sucky thing called love, really changed me. I mean, wen i was feeling down last tym, i wld be silent and very easily pissed but now, wen im down, i can put on a mask n joke ard pretending nothing is happening even if the pain is killing me......

Haiz...i juz wish for once i can end my year on a high....

'I really tot i had a chance....I supported u even wen i din want u to go to tat trip....I waited for u even tho i had other choices.....I worry for u every single day....n now I only have pain to show for my effort'

After all is said n done, i juz have one thing to say:
What a fucking year it has been, and what a fucking year it will be!!!

Shad checked in on...Saturday, January 01, 2005