Friday, January 27, 2006
Off day....
Can i have an off day? Can i juz for one day be the silent one or sane one without sumone ask if i have a problem? Haizzz...i wonder. Is it so wrong for me to be quiet once in awhile? I mean, sometyms i do have things to think abt, private or personal things tat i juz want to ponder abt. N during those tyms, i tend to juz zone off or be silent. Tat doesnt mean tat im sad or smth rite...
I mean, lets face it we face problems in our everyday lyf so dun ask me if i have a problem or smth. Of cuz i do, who doesnt. Lyk i always say, "having no problems is a problem."
I guess this past few days i've been doin alot of thinking tat i sumhow dun care to share much wif others, or rather juz dun feel lyk saying it out. One of those things im thinking abt is my band....juz wondering if things can really move on or r we juz gg down.
Juz now, went in the big 'aquarium' lab n kt was telling me how bored she was. So i offered teaching her to play the gitar. Dun ask me y, i juz blurt it out without thinking. She accepted the offer wif much excitement tat it showed how bored she was. So me n fahmy brought her to the staircase wif our gitars which is always in sch for the current moment. As usually, i started teaching her wif the basic, the first 3 frets. Fahmy helped me out n he decided to teach her 'stand by me' bass. Tats the usual song ppl usually teach to beginers. She kinda got the hang of it but i guess it can be tiring n depressing especially since fahmy cldnt stop showing of his freestyling skills haha yah i noe he din mean it, juz tat he loves plucking too much.
Niways, i tink she wanted a break n so passed me the gitar to play smth...i din noe wat to play so me n fahmy attempted to play 'Come back to me'. N i use the word attempted well cuz we really screwed it up haha...after tat song, i started playing all kinds of shit n i guess i kinda forgot tat i was supposed to teach kt haha i guess tats how much i love music. I get so easily distracted...So KT, if u do read my blog, Sorry tat i din manage to teach u much yeah. Kinda not myself n got carried away haha....
Well music, as most of u will noe, is really a passion of mine. I juz wish tat i cld do better in it. Yah sure i write songs but wen im kinda unsure how they are exactly. Sumtyms wen i listen to dem, my thinking will be like "Wow! Cant believe this came out of it....how did i do it man..." Other tyms, my train of tot wld be "Haiz....If this is the best i can do mebi i shd juz give up" I duno lah...wish i cld write songs again...I NEED SOME INSPIRATION.....
Some other tots tat come across my mind quite often nowdays is how to move on from smth, or rather sumone. I guess i'd do juz abt anything to try to forget ********. I guess in this sense im kinda weak. Haiz....can anyone help me? haha yeah rite...no one can unless i help myself but i wish i knew where to start...
Sometyms i juz wonder wat am i doing in lyf. I mean wat have i achieve so far? Or rather, r my achievements so far worthwhile? Wish i knew....
I guess today is juz one of those days where i have juz so much to tok abt but juz not sure how to put them into words...or mebi there's juz no one ard to listen. Is tat cause no one wants to listen? I duno, u tell me...
I'd really give juz abt anything to get on wif my lyf...
Dun bother....Outz....
Shad checked in on...Friday, January 27, 2006