Monday, November 20, 2006

Self-Destruction

Sometyms i wonder, am i a good personor a bad person? As in, do the ppl ard me hate me? Or mebi im juz tolerable. It seems lyk the onli logical explaination of why i always seem to hang out or stick ard wif the same few person...namely roma n fad.

Y the sudden reflection? Well, cuz i feel hurt rite now. I have a fren who i feel very much indebted too. we used to be close but things chg. I noe i have to live wif the chges cuz chges will happen no matter wat. But it really hurts wen i offer a token of appreciation for helping me so much in the past n was turned down.

All i did was ask if it was possible for us to meet up for a short while before i serve my natinal service, my treat. I really dun see any harm in this. But apparently, she doesn't agree. The onli reason she agreed to meet me initially was cuz she wanted to return some cds of mine which she borrowed. N even then, it was more lyk meet up for a few mins to pass the cds n leave...so, Am i tat bad of a person?

Sometyms i do wonder if the frenship we shared meant a thing to her now. I duno, I'm sick now...mebi tat's y i'm so pissed off abt this.


So, my kind audience who may hate or not lyk me too much, sit back n njoy. And pls, WATCH ME SELF-DESTRUCT............

Shad checked in on...Monday, November 20, 2006